Journal Entry: Mon Apr 7, 2014, 8:05 PM
I feel like I say this every time I submit a journal on here, but boy is life crazy. Maybe it's because I hardly update my journals, but I feel like this has honestly been the busiest, craziest, most exciting time of my life.
While I've had my share of things that aren't as fun to dwell on happen in the recent past, I've had a few small triumphs as well. I've had three things on my list this year. THE list, that is. My first was to be accepted into a doctoral program, the second was to at least make it into the annual juried art exhibition at my college, and the third was to make it into Psi Chi (The International Honor Society in Psychology).
Well, four months into 2014, I can say this about that list...
1. I am on the wait-list for the program I applied for (not what I wanted, but also a pleasant surprise and not a flat out denial).
2. I placed 4th out of 116 pieces (I only know that because I helped curate the show from the beginning to the very end of that day)! That was something I was totally not expecting, and it nearly brought me to (happy) tears to hear my photography professor announce that my name and my piece ("Continuum"). (Fun fact: I got a little upset after all of the honorable mentions were named because I thought that was the best I would come out with.)
3. Last Tuesday, I was inducted into Psi Chi after being denied initially and then was reconsidered by the department who delivered a unanimous "Absolutely!" when asked if I should be inducted.
Despite of everything else that has happened, I'm really pleased overall with how things are right now. Graduation is coming up in May, and before that I get to take my first study abroad trip (a cruise)! I'm so ready for the semester to end, but I'm not sure about life after graduation. I am excited to move on to the next phase of my life, but I'm a bit anxious too.
I have ideas of what I could/want to do next, but I've also discovered that I don't want to completely let go of photography. I always saw myself as a hobbyist with a sort of photojournalistic focus, but now I really want to continue working in a studio with installations and models with film (35mm and beyond if I can) and continue to work in the darkroom. That in itself is a struggle given my limited resources (space and money), but I really want to try and network sometime with people back home to see if I could find someone to mentor me possibly.
It's just weird, wanting a serious career in psychology, but also having this newer desire to make art pulling me in another direction. I don't want to sacrifice either one, and finding that balance is going to be one of the next (of many) challenges life throws at me.
Listening to: Ellie Goulding
Reading: Intercourse by Andrea Dworkin (sort of )